Getting Real....
I fell off my Monday wagon…I’ve been sick for what seems like forever…I’m over it. I want to say heyyy to all of my new friends who have subscribed and been reading the blog! I’m so happy you’re here!
I can’t believe its February already!…and WOOT WOOT!!! Its my birthday month! I can’t believe it has come back around so fast! These birthdays are coming faster and faster, I swear! So Let’s get into it! So today I’m just sharing my heart… this blog is about as random as they come but its really important for me to share. I feel that it is a part of my journey.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting and thinking which I usually do as I begin to approach becoming another year older. To be honest, I had to stop thinking so much. I did allow myself the time to reflect and even, dare I say it, reminisce (a liiiiiiiiiiittle)…So many things came to mind.
About two years ago, I set out to really get control of my emotions and find ways to deal with stress and negative emotions and anger. I got it under control and really there were only two people who could make me mad lol. What I found was that in gaining control of my negative emotions, my positive emotions had the room to cultivate and thrive. My sensitivities, I could express my heart and not just my head. My affectionate side was charged and “softer” emotions began to naturally blossom. As that side grew, I started to see the those hidden corners of my heart that really needed to be addressed. I sincerely started praying for God to heal my emotions….completely! I wanted to be new. I was tested so much during that time. Situations where my natural instinct would be to turn up, I literally started praying about them and found that some issues weren’t even worth my energy to address. My new method of resolving conflict was to literally ignore things that didn’t deserve my time. One by one, they began to work out without me having to lose control of myself. I’ve always had a fear of people “Getting one over on me.” It used to literally drive me crazy. I’ve been working on continuing to handle things my way regardless of how people handle me. The thing is, I have experienced peace learning to continue to walk in love…
I feel so much more comfortable expressing myself without resorting to anger as a means of communicating disappointment and hurt. Hurt people hurt people so continuing to carry anger and bitterness is only hurting you because the person who hurt you is already hurt.
Love is such a rich part of life. Love covers, protects and secures. It is always present. It is felt and it is known. It is bold and it is fearless. Love is truth. Love is strong. I didn’t realize that really understanding love would help me so much in this season. Feeling loved is a part of what everyone needs to blossom. Experiencing the transformative power of real Love is life-changing.
Learning to share my own emotions has made me more understanding of others and I carry a love and empathy for others in a way that I never have before.
In this phase of my journey, my desire is to be a woman who loves endlessly with no reservations-truly and deeply. I want to be everything I need to be first to please God, and then for myself. Under the umbrella of myself naturally comes working on being all the other things in life to those I share it with! The parter, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, teacher …(whoever I am to you!)….The crazy thing is, life has a way of taking you through loops only to take you back to a place or person you’ve walked by week in and week out and never noticed. It can take you far away and it can even leave you right in the place where you are with a completely different experience one you change your mind. The key is to be confident in what you know to be true about your journey, and that is, that it is your own. People may not get it, understand it or even think you’re crazy but stand on who you are and what you know.
All in all, be content where you are. Its ok to not have it together…Nobody does. Pride can sometimes make us miss the greatest blessings in life. Take the risk! You may be shocked to see what happens!
I pray that you are inspired to go for what you want and have the courage to be who you are. Don’t let life dim your light. You are bright and you have everything it takes to Shine!
Love endlessly,
Thanks for reading!
Lo
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